It’s starting out as a doozy. I’m still suffering from insomnia. Up at midnight and pacing the floor. My left leg continues to have neurological issues despite being gluten free for the better part of month. Got a little depression thing going on too…I think it has less to do with my age and more to do with my circumstances. I feel trapped with another year to go on my contract, but where else is there to go? I know I really must be feeling bad because the thought of moving back home sounds appealing and I know that is a huge red flag. I don’t want to move back to the Gulf Coast, much less NE Ohio, but I guess I miss my son, my BFF and her beautiful girls (I’m missing them grow up) and of course, my parents too. Fortunately, I must have anticipated that this would happen because before I went to bed, I wrote myself a letter of encouragement. It said, “You can do it!” and then I listed all my goals. Some were long term and some were short term. Anyway, my leg is still all whacked out, but at least I an gaining some perspective and peace, following a heartfelt prayer to the Lord.
Edit: Did one hour on the track this morning. I got in a few hours of REM sleep. That seemed to do the trick. I had a strange dream though. I dreamt I was crossing a busy street with Jennifer, when I looked around to find her, she was gone. I finally found her in an upstarts apartment with some of the old Zhonshi crowd. I was like “Come on. Let’s go meet your your boyfriend/fiancé,” and she was like, “No I don’t want to go.” She was messing around in the kitchen cooking or washing dishes. Somehow I got the impression that the new boyfriend/fiancé was a fast food chicken tycoon. Strange, huh?
Back to the run. I ran to Podrunner’s Easygoing – Laps of Memory. I woke up really early this morning, on some sort of emotional roller coaster. I finally went back to sleep and woke up again, at least two more times. I got up when my alarm went off. I hit the snooze button 4 times before finally stumbling out of bed. By the time I got out to the track, the sun had already risen and it was already ten after six. When I was getting ready for the run, I must have accidentally hit the Easygoing button because it had already started by the time I got around to putting the earbuds in.
Easygoing is a nice mix, no real zingers in there except at the end. When Eternity Love started playing. Due to my knowledge of the esoteric and the occult, I was quite aware of the fact that the love she was singing about was not romantic love.
Lost track of the number of laps, again.
Regarding form, as much as I was able to, I focused on:
- lifting my knees in order to prevent them from locking up
- arms swinging at sides of the waist
- hips/pelvis tucked
- shoulders down
- lift ribs
- slight forward lean
- head up and in a neutral position
- forefoot strike (epic fail on that one)
Please pray my continued good health…